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This is a post I made a while ago, but felt it should go here.

“You’re lucky to have so much confidence in God.” -email argument with an evangelical friend of mine over “the gays” (and how I’m kind of sort of one).

Honey, I did not “luck” into confidence in my faith. I didn’t find it lying in the street, like a $20 bill with no owner. I worked my ass off for that shit. I hung out with the sinners, with atheists, with people of other religions, with people of my own faith with whom I disagreed. I built it up out of hopeless situations, of being told that part of my identity was wrong, that being an unmarried mother was wrong, that distancing myself from my abusive mother was wrong. I went outside the lines, and came back with a stronger faith.

You don’t luck into confidence in your beliefs. You work at it. You pit it against different beliefs. You don’t try to make the world conform to your viewpoint, but have faith that your beliefs will work within the world. You trust it. You believe in your beliefs.

Then you do it again. And again. And with repeated success in your beliefs holding up against various situations, you gain confidence.

And if your beliefs don’t hold up against the world, then maybe you need to take a look at why that is. I’m not saying you need to logic your faith. That’s not what faith is. That’s reasoning, which is also a wonderful thing. But don’t assume the world is wrong because it doesn’t fit pre-constructed beliefs. And don’t buy into pre-constructed (someone else’s, your church’s, or your society’s) beliefs because it’s easier. We take the easy way when we’re too lazy or too afraid to take another way.

Don’t let fear of how someone in your church will judge you control you. And don’t let others bully you into buying into their beliefs. We call that terrorism, and there’s a war out on that. 🙂

It’s not easy, and it’s not lucky. It’s hard work. But it’s totally worth it.